In the wake of the news today of the amount of suicides and epidemic of anxiety related issues and depression i wanted to post this piece. I hope it is helpful. As I have suffered from hi functioning anxiety and know what its like, as well as experiencing it with many friends in different manifestations, from passive, passive aggressive, to bullying and out and out explosive rage. Depending on the personality and life experiences of these people.
My you tube channel kennyhealth, has binaurals and mediations short and long for you to try. Be aware the response to binaurals can be profound.
Some people think they can always see high functioning anxiety, as some personalities manifest it in outward behaviour of all of these symptoms and many more. They are obvious and can be scary and negative ,while others are smarter at hiding it and as terrified of exposure, if not more so….
Those who show these behaviours, plus addictions in a bid to avoid and numb the response, use distractions in the form of physical and behavioural addictions based on what they know or believes works , but in fact may contribute or aggravate and increase the anxiety.
.These addictions and behaviours are distractions, like funneling the energy and controlling the emotional terror from becoming known. A wall is built , by either hiding away or blowing up , a fight or flight stress response
These numbing behaviours can be in the form of sex addiction, toxic relationships , a need to be right , ocd, drug addiction, alcohol addiction exercise addiction , eating disorders, etc.
Some personalities do not have the tools, or close enough relationships to channel the anxiety. They may never have been given them, or have had a series of stressor s that have led them through their life to a point of meeting the anxiety fueling and continuing it one way or another and wanting to not feel the anxiety or fear , by going to the wrong place in their bodies
These feelings are real. But they are only feelings ..and you can control them outside of self abuse, channeling , or over acting
Entering a cycle of profound terror, is unbearable. I have had many friends and clients over the years ,who suffered and manifested in many ways and stood with them while their terror manifested illogically to the onlooker, yet perfectly logical to them.
I have watched such terror and have suffered it myself in response, to ongoing hi stress. This is not a good place and everyone experiences it at one time or another.
When it is pushed down and manifesting in many ways, maybe a smiling face or overly positive , or absolute logical personality behaviour s. This behaviour if it is touched upon , sends a violent energetic surge through the body that must exit in some way.
. It can only be held inside for so long. Sometimes just a walk, a scream ,meditation or standing in the moment, till it passes can help reverse the bodies interpretation.
These reactions and behaviours can be managed because of the physical response. You need however to recognise you are suffering .This is challenging ,if you are fighting yourself internally ,externally, or dealing with addictions and behaviours ,keeping you together for a moment, or that feeling of control when you lash out and get short term relief from the impulse
Their is a technique called flooding that is very useful and it is scary , because you must stand in the fear , the anger ,rage, terror and name it.
It is not a person, or set of circumstances it is your response to them ,as you cannot understand the pattern or the source .
Counselling ,reiki ,mediation, binaurals ,kundalini work , regular exercise , sea air, are all useful to bring these patterns up, to name them and throw them away ,as you break old patterns .
You do need help , as emotionally this can be very real terror…
Practising flooding ,brings a A physical response about in the body that tells you physically you a re not in A life threatening danger.
Your reaction to a mail, or text , a conversation, is not a lion about to devour you where you must defend yourself or run and hide to avoid life and deal with your deep feelings
Even though you may believe their is no way out of the room you have locked yourself in. Their is a way.
Their is always a way , always someone to help you just need to identify , or name it and ask, instead of running to what you know and has continuously damaged your emotional health, from an early age. You need to find empatjy for yourself . Not easy at all…especially for many who think they deserve the feelings.
We all have these issues, we all suffer anxiety the really broken ones, need to recognise they are not alone and instead of fighting and defending or acting big and bullying, recognise that they are symptoms of a pattern that can be broken.
Others who suffer in silence in the wake of their terror, wake up now and again to a worse situation, tey to handle it short term and hope it goes away, as they require more oxytocin, dopamine, sex, money, things ,booze, drugs, to funtion all the time and through the awake phase , the need becomes higher to match it, the anxiety grows and the cycle is on. Break the cycle and try flooding. It is never too late , your are not weak you are in need of some tools to break a cycle. . Anxiety is not the same as depression ,but when both live together this can be deadly…. get help . Their is help, you dont need to hold it together alone , when you are falling apart. Their is no shame in falling apart. It is ok…
Consider it a reboot…